any truth behind that? for me, i dunno man. don’t have many of either lol.

freedom
took me two months, but i finally am not taking my zoloft. took me two months of weening off that shit. worst shit i’ve gone through in a while. bad side-effects when i started to come down off the zoloft. electric shocks in my brain, skin was all creepy crawling, losing my train of thought all the time, chills, all that shit. fuck zoloft. never taking that again. worst decision i’ve ever made in my life. three years of my life down the shitter. looking back, i don’t know how i existed. the medication was like a tight blanket on my brain. i did not feel happiness nor sadness. life was boring, uneventful.
now i see every day differently, good and bad. all i do now is focus on not letting situations stress me out.
out of my hands
I hired an attorney in March and am finally going after my father. No longer will he manipulate me, make me fearful of him, use me, and treat me like shit. No more secrets, no more mismanagement of my finances, no more lies. I am getting all of the information on my finances, good or bad, once and for all. This was the best decision I’ve ever done. Such a weight has been lifted off my shoulders now. I just let my attorney and the court system do their thing and I’ll wait for the results whenever that comes.
business is good
Business has been great. Finally after two years of working my ass off, it is starting to pay off. Starting to see some profits, and really enjoying the challenges of the work.
sickness
Ever since last Thursday (not yesterday), I’ve had a really irritated throat, coughing, hacking up crap from my lungs, and loss of voice. I lost my voice a couple days ago. It comes and goes. Aggrevates the hell out of me. Can’t talk to customers. I couldn’t even yell at this asshole who parked his truck at the end of my road in the middle of the intersection. I love how people think the road I live on is a parking lot and they can do whatever they want. I got some non-mentholated Hall’s cough drops. Hopefully that will help restore my voice and get rid of the throat irritation.
events
Saw Drowning Pool, Silent Civilian, Twin Method, and Stereoside at Ushuaia’s in Orono. Not a bad concert. Apparently DP is on their 3rd vocalist, and this dude sucks. He cant sing, but is nowhere as bad as the vocalist for Silent Civilian. He was utter crap. He needs to go back to just playing guitar. DP’s vocalist sucks so much the drummer provides a lot of the vocals.
trip
I’m thinking of visiting my friend and his wife in VIrginia at the end of July. I don’t look forward for the 12 hour drive. That’ll suck. I think I may stay over in Jersey or somewhere. I’d like to meet my attorney face to face as well. Just so I can thank him for the work he and his associates are doing. Maybe I should meet up with some other family members who I like while I am down there. Family members from my dad’s side of the family, who my dad just shits on. What a tool my dad is. One day he’ll wake up and realize he has destroyed every relationship he has had, and will be alone and bitter. It’s sad actually.

Couple of quick showstoppers with Windows Small Business Server 2003:

1. Upon installation, make positively sure you put in the Active Directory information in correctly. If you make a mistake, you are fucked. Reinstall the server. The only way.
2. Never delete or rename the MyBusiness Organizational Unit (OU) or make any changes inside of it. Doing so will fuck the server bad.

Those are two lessons I learned recently. Learn from my mistakes.